Idiocy in the New Age
So. I did something really REALLY stupid in the last couple of weeks. I propositioned a colleague/semi-friend for a FWB (friends with benefits) arrangement, and the person took me up on it. Stupid, stupid, STUPID. Do not EVER do this.
Here’s the issue. FWB is too young for me (7 years, never married, no kids). FWB is at a different stage of life than me. FWB sees this (and rightfully so) as FWB. Unfortunately, I stopped seeing it as that once I’d realized that I was having fun even when we weren’t “WBing,” if you get my drift.
Watching TV was fun, talking was fun, and of course, the sex was fun. This in all made the entire thing REALLY stupid. Because I am at the lonely phase of the divorce. And I wanted, if not more relationship, more WB. More, more, more. And more TV watching. And more cuddling. You get the idea.
So I started acting like a man in the desert who hasn’t had water in awhile. Yeah. I know. Attractive, right? NOT. And he started pulling back (again, rightfully so). And so I’m now trying to remember that THE UNIVERSE DOES NOT REWARD DESPERATION. So I’m working at doing the “friends” thing without the “with benefits” thing.
So far, it feels like the early stages of detox–wantwantwantwant. At the same time, I know this is what’s good for me. So I’m workin’ on it. Still, if he txted me right now and said he was coming over, I’d have the condoms out faster than you can say “Trojan.”
I’m filing this whole experience under “seemed like a good idea at the time.”
If you’re getting divorced, trust me: DO NOT DO THIS.
